Adios January

Thanks for the supportive comments. :)
I've been okay. Took a couple days off this week. Ups and downs. I'm okay right now. I think my mental state switched a bit to "get things done. you have 5.5 months until the wedding and everything to do"
It's nice to have something nice to focus on. I don't know how many people have come up to me with the sympathy look and saying it's too bad my dad won't see my wedding. If anything upsets me right now, it's really thinking about that. So I'm trying not to.

I don't know about walking down the aisle. Who should do it if anyone. Steve and I talked. I may walk half way and he picks me up and takes me the rest. I don't know.

We're getting out of dodge for the day tomorrow. It'll be nice to have date day just the two of us. Then a hockey game tomorrow night. Distraction. Such a good thing right now.

In a flash..

In a flash, life changed.
In a flash, happy turned sad.
In a flash, my family was altered.

I replay the knock on the door and my mom and sister standing there with tears in their eyes. I reeled back into the house and all I remember was crying no, no, no over and over. I knew why they were there. I knew my dad was gone. I'll never understand why he was taken so soon and why we won't have a longer life with him, but I will always be thankful we didn't lose him 10 years ago when he had his massive heart attack and bypass surgeries. I'll also be thankful that when he had his 2 strokes almost 3 years ago, that he survived those too.

I have to take comfort that he didn't go painfully.
I have to take comfort that he got to see my sister and I reach life milestones I know he wanted to see.
I have to take comfort that I have years and years of happy, wonderful memories.
I have to take comfort that he'll always be with me.

I'm sad right now, but I know time will heal me.

2008 - A year in review

01. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
Get engaged!

02. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn’t make any last year.

03. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Shannon had a baby boy. My friend and coworker gave birth in the summer.

04. Did anyone close to you die?
No, knock on wood.

05. What countries did you visit?
I stayed in Canada.

06. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
Some peace and quiet from some baggage.

07. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
January 18th – My 30th birthday
November 23rd, the day S proposed.

08. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Settling into family life and being able to balance my career with it.

09. What was your biggest failure?
Letting stress get to me too easily.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I caught every bug E brought home from the day care.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My laptop!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Not sure. S maybe. I watched him grow into being a wonderful father.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
S’ ex-wife.

14.Where did most of your money go?
bills and debt.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Getting married in 2009!

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
I’m Yours: Jason Mraz.
No one: Alicia Keyes
Odette: Matthew Good.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder?
Happier.
thinner or fatter?
Thinner
richer or poorer?
Poorer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Work out.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Stressing out about things out of my control.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
With S and E, my parents and sister and his parents. So great!

21. Did you fall in love in 2008?
I sure did…every day, more and more.

22. What was your favourite TV program?
Nothing stands out.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope.

24. What was the best book you read?
I didn’t read much last year. Bad Nicole!

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
No one new this year.

26. What did you want and get?
Laptop.

27. What did you want and not get?
Nothing!

28. What was your favourite film of this year?
Not sure. Nothing stands out.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I went for a few dinners. I turned 30.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Less stress.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Business casual and at home, comfy.

32. What kept you sane?
Talking about things.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
None

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
Watching our tax dollars fly out of our pockets for more elections.

35. Who did you miss?
My parents. I don’t see them as much as I used to.

36. Who was the best new person you met?
Ummmm…not sure.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008
Talk about things that bother me.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
“Hey Midnight. Turn on your lights and roll out your stars.”
Odette, Matthew Good. Great lyrics!

Happy 2009

If what you do on New Years is any indication of what the year will hold, I think I'm going to have a pretty relaxing year. Haha!
I spent the entire day in pjs yesterday. Total bliss.

It's almost time to get back to the grind. I have to admit, I'm glad I booked a couple more days off and won't return until the 8th. I could use a couple more days of relaxing and taking it easy. It's going to be a busy few months. I have a lot of work ahead of me work-wise, the wedding to plan with S and anything else that may crop up.

How are you internet readers? :) I've missed this a little....